started with a dream... but it doesn't end there.
Everyone has a story that's just waiting to be told... and this story is about a girl who loves to write, chase her dreams and shoot for the stars. :)
Aspiring writer. In a relationship with books. Music moves my soul. Mythology Geek. PJO Fan. The Hunger Games Fan. Adores any Dystopian Fiction. Member of Himig R. Up all night. I listen to Alexander Ludwig before sleeping. :') Proud Rosena. Proud Filipina. Fearless Swiftie. Forever caffeineted. Milk tea lover. Cookie monster. Ice cream is heaven as well. You can find me typing away on my iPhone for a new story or what almost everywhere I go but mostly, I'm in another dimension having fun fun fun.
I write all kinds of things. I have an upcoming dystopian novel, "Steel". I write short stories mostly involving romance and my ideas about love. I like poetry too and I have different themes ranging from friendship to social issues when I create one. I have proses and essays in case you're interested in reading them,I doodle during class hours or any free time and they're posted here as well. I have book reviews and everything in this blog is mostly original ;)
Gaze at the stars and shoot for them too. :')
Write to express,not to impress. Write what you want to say,not what they want to hear.
My new sounds:
Permalink · 02.11.13 05:59pm
It was another ordinary day at school. We had a lot to do, as usual. I fell asleep for the first time in my English class, since I was pretty bored with the topic. Actually, to be honest, almost all the topics for this quarter is boring. It poses no challenge and some of them aren’t even required in our field of study. I just don’t get the point why we have to waste our time studying things we don’t even need. Our school should have electives we can choose from. Electives, aside from enhancing and honing our skills, also gives us the chance to focus on things we really want to do and things we really want to learn about. We don’t have to be stuck in classes we don’t need to pay attention to. It also allows us to avoid sleazing and sleeping in class since our interest becomes our focal point.
Since up until nighttime I was pretty much bored, I decided to muster up the courage to make a cover. I’ve been getting around this “Cups” song by Anna Kendrick, and I’ve made a mashup out of it, featuring pop songs of today. I decided to do the cover with the theme “Rihanna” which includes singles by the said artist.
So, I guess that’s pretty much it. Nothing so special today except for making music and meeting up with my so-called twin sister, Reanne.
Permalink · 02.09.13 09:38pm
My new sounds:
Permalink · 02.08.13 10:49pm
Actually, we did nothing in school today. And when I say NOTHING, I mean NOTHING. Seriously. I don’t even know why they let us come to school if they’ll only make us take the CEM Diagnostic test (which I didn’t take seriously, btw).
My mega mashup’s going pretty great. So far I’ve included six tracks minus the samplers which I will be editing in Audacity. I’m excited to be playing it in prom night since our activity coordinator agreed that we could play a song if we wanted to. (squeals and yelps)
The Rita Theater was also back in action. We had a film showing of Les Miserables since not everybody in our class had the chance to watch it.
Although it’s been my third time to view the movie and although I’ve known it before the movie, Les Mis still made me cry. It’s one of these works of art that never gets old. The story never gets tiring to follow and the characters never get to stagnant or shallow. Even though you already know the next scene or the next twist, you keep watching it because it’s that GOOD. In Les Mis, everything is full of meaning. Every scene touches your heart and hits you hard. No wonder Victor Hugo is a complete genius.
Permalink · 02.06.13 10:03pm
One of the last Tuesdays.
Yeah, I know the picture looks funny. But srsly, I’ll be saying goodbye to school very soon.
Senior Year has been a real great year for me. Although I was faced with loads of schoolwork and stress, I can say that it was a year of dreams, a year of hope, a year of fun, a year of friends, and most of all, a year of finding myself.
I have often heard that it is during Senior year that you truly grow up. A childish part of you remains, but you may or may not realize, you’re not the same Freshman or gradeschooler who once trotted the halls with gay laughter and shallow joy. You’re a different person, yet the gay laughter stays. You’re born again, yet the shallow joy still comes out during uncaught moments, during sudden flashbacks or desires to go back to the past. You are not the old you anymore. You’re a much better person. You’re a better version of the outdated you.
Senior Year has taught me a lot of things that I cannot put into words. It has been a heck of a last year here at CSR, but I can say that I enjoyed it. Wherever college I might end up in sooner, I am very grateful to God for allowing me to finish school here in CSR. This may be one of the last Tuesdays or the last February 5 I am going to spend in CSR, and it may appear as if it were only an ordinary day; however, I learn to treasure the ordinary days. It’s these little details that count and make up page by page. I learn to treasure terrible Tuesdays, double-period Physics and back-to-back Math. I learn how to keep track of the time I have left, because as it turns out, I don’t have much anymore.
Permalink · 02.05.13 09:38pm
“Page 35 of 365: From a pedestrian’s viewpoint”
Permalink · 02.04.13 11:33pm
So, I just woke up from my nap, and I haven’t even studied for tomorrow’s first period quiz Ugh.
I feel so indolent today. I just want to rest and sleep all day. I don’t need statistics or computer codes to block my mind from calm and serene thoughts.
Anyway, I found out I got into one more school again!
I received a letter from UA&P regarding my acceptance, and they’re also offering a 50% merit scholarship because of my academic performance. I felt so happy since it was the only school who hasn’t released the results yet and because it was the last one I’ve been waiting for. I didn’t fail any school I took the test into, and for me, that’s a feat. I thank God in all these moments of triumph and for guiding me through my endeavors. It was not me who worked miracles. It was Him.
Since I passed two prestigious schools and qualified for a scholarship, I bouught myself a reward today. I got a copy of Article 5, Angel Fire, Every Day and Reached. All in hardcover bindings!(Yay!)
So I guess that’s pretty much it. I have to get myself to work. I still have two quizzes on hold. Ugh. I hope tomorrow will be a “chill” day.
Bye for now!
Permalink · 02.04.13 11:28pm
“Page 33 of 365: More of Morelli’s”
Permalink · 02.04.13 12:24am
I woke up today and thought everything was just a dream. But it wasn’t. It was real. I passed my dream school, and yesterday really happened.
All my life I’ve been dreaming and working hard for that dream. I’ve been aiming for a good future, a published book or a work in the field of social media, and now, I’m starting to live that dream. I’m not just a dreamer anymore. I’m finally living this dream.
But I guess I will never ever stop dreaming. It’s what fuels me. It’s what drives me to bring out the best in me. It’s what leads me to change myself in order to become a better entity worthy of having those dreams. I was born to be a dreamer, but I was destined to become more than that.
The stars may seem far, but in truth, they are in our proximity. They are within our reach. We just need to stretch out a little more. If they disappear, know that stars cannot shine without darkness. We need darkness in our lives to bring out the brightest of stars.
Dream on, dreamer, and don’t you ever stop dreaming because it is these dreams that will take you to limits and prove to you that they don’t even exist.
Permalink · 02.04.13 12:22am
“Page 33 of 365: First gelato at Morelli’s <3”
Permalink · 02.04.13 12:15am
I can’t believe how much could happen in a span of 24 hours. Living this day with different people and different incidents has caused me to believe that a lot can happen in a short period of time and that one day can totally spin your world around and change it. If there was a day that would turn my topsy turvy world upside down, it would be this day. I don’t know why. It’s just that, as far as other chapters go, page 33 was one of the most pivotal chapters. It was one of the days I would categorize as life-changing, unforgettable, and most of all, eventful.
My day started with my date with Ms. Teptep, my former English teacher. The two of us ate at KFC and bonded at Power Station, a local arcade. We unleashed our boyish sides by playing basketball, Tekken and Time Crisis. Ms. Teptep was amazed at my Tekken skills although I admitted that I was out of practice. She just kept pressing random buttons all throughout the game. We also tried playing Guitar Hero in which we miserably failed. (What? It just proves that I cannot handle arcade guitars as well as real ones with six strings.) We also had fun in the photo booth, wherein during our first trial, after we posed four times in front of the camera, the screen showed different faces very far from ours. Turns out they were the previous people who used the booth. We had a good laugh at that incident, and I kept saying, “Last time I checked, I was wearing grey…” since the girl at my side donned a blue polka dot blouse.
Aside from eating and spending a good time at the arcade, we also had time to catch up and talk about our lives. I asked her how was China, and she told me about her struggles to teach the English language back at Xiamen. For her students to get what she’s saying, she has to act it out like some sort of charade. She also told me about her hilarious students and the students who would knock on her apartment so that they could hang out. It seems pretty cool to have your mentor around and have them hang out with you.
I also told her about the things I’m busy doing at the moment. I told her about college (more follow up on that topic later) and the zero improvement of my love life. She still can’t believe that I am hardly attracted to anybody my age. But I had to tell her about my priorities and that those priorities didn’t include having a relationship. Besides, she’s the one who did a video for me about being happily single.
After spending a few hours with Ms. Teptep, I went with Nicole and Christine to the DBTI fair. I knew we were a little too late, but we still made it. We didn’t do much though. Nicole had to come home, so Christine I were left behind. We had our first one-on-one best friend date. We had gelato at Morelli’s which we indulged on, and chatted while we finished our treats. We talked about getting apart in college, since she’s going to La Salle and I’m still undecided between Ateneo or UP (more update later!!!) We also window shopped for clothes and dresses. We even tried on dresses at Evernew and ended up wanting to buy them. Oh, those covetous, little things!
While Christine and I were together, just like what happened with the Ateneo results, the UPCAT test results came out. I had mine checked, and I found out I was a pending case. I qualified, but there was some discrepancy that cannot guarantee me getting in their campus.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to feel.
Before UPCAT results, I was decided on going to Ateneo already. My mindset was glued to being a Blue Eagle, since I didn’t expect that I would even have a shot at the country’s most prestigious university. Turns out, I did have a shot, and that shot could be gone from me anytime.
I don’t want to thing negatively, but I’m now in a situation wherein nothing seems so sure anymore. I’m a girl who likes making plans, who needs to have things ensured before she tests the waters, but I guess that can’t happen right now. My fate into entering my lifelong dream school no longer lies on my hands, and I cannot help but feel doubt creeping all over me. A part of me wants to pursue this “pending case” in UP and hope that I get accepted, but also, a part of me wants to go to Ateneo, my safe school and no longer hope because I’ve learned the lesson about hoping the hard way. When you expect or hope, you end up being disappointed. I don’t want to feel disappointed. I am happy that I passed, yes, and I feel so blessed about it. I asked God for a good school, and He provided me with more than what I asked for. When I went to the Chapel where I celebrated my Simbang Gabi dawn masses, I cried. I couldn’t help it. I felt as if God was really there. It was as if, He’s beside me and that it was Him, and not me, who caused this to happen. While I was on my way out, I picked up a small bible verse scroll from the counseling bowl along the way. I was asking God what did He want to tell me, and when I opened it, here’s what it said:
That was when the tears began to flow again. I felt His presence surrounding me, lifting me up and telling me that everything’s going to be alright, telling me that He will never forsake me. With God and with faith, nothing is impossible. If you believe enough in one thing, God will give it to you if He sees it your best interest. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve this fate, but I am very grateful for this miracle although I can’t claim it still.
But I believe He will give it to me. If He got me into UP, it means that He has a plan for me. I don’t know how it happened, but it did. I passed UPCAT, and I conquered the impossible. I’m the one who should be praised for passing. It’s God.
Mom also took me to Laffline, a local comedy bar featuring Vice Ganda, one of the most popular comedy artists here in my country. I was lucky, especially since it’s my first time and a big guest was going to perform tonight.
Vice Ganda was really awesome. I was all hands down to her. I was happy I got the chance to witness her live performance besides Show Time, and I was totally starstruck at her humor, her wit and her comments that will surely knock you down. We even had a picture together while she was doing her song number. I literally fell off my while laughing and had my own share of embarrassment.
I’ve never been this happy before. It’s like seeing things in a different viewpoint, in a different horizon. I feel limitless. I feel as if the word ‘impossible’ doesn’t exist anymore. I feel as if nothing could go wrong anymore.
It’s amazing how you can be so happy that no coherent speech could be formed from your mouth or no right thoughts could form in your brain. It’s amazing how moments like this could change your existence and leave a mark worth going back to, a mark worth remembering. It’s amazing how things turn out, how plans fall in the rise of new ones, how life weaves new paths for us to diverge from what road we are traveling on. It’s funny how life twists and turns and makes choices for us. It’s amazing how we get to choose in the end.
Life is beautiful. Sometimes we are just consumed by the world’s ugliness that we fail to notice it. But being alive is, indeed, a wonderful feeling. Being alive is more than existing. Being alive means living.
We own this night, and nobody can dare take it away from us.
Permalink · 02.03.13 11:35pm